So usually I'm not much of an emotional person at all. My mom says I have no heart because I don't show emotion about a lot of things -- so not true, of course! But we're opposites in that respect, because she has no problem showing emotion!
But here lately, with the prospect of so many things in my life changing, I feel like I may cry at any moment. Looking for a job and knowing that when I find one, there's a 99% chance I'll have to move away, breaks my heart. Athens is my home. These are my best friends. And I don't want to go.
Athens is the first and only place I've lived on my own. When I finally got ready to 'leave the nest,' this is where I wound up. I was never a Georgia fan, never wanted to come to UGA, but I came. And I fell in love. So, I have no desire to leave. Except that deep down, I know I can't stay here forever. I know most people don't, and I'm sure everyone who has had the best four (or so...) years of their life here find it hard to move on from this stage of life. It's hard to really grow up, and head out into the real world.
There's not really words to describe the pull this place has on you, or what it is exactly I feel when I get so emotional about leaving this place. But I know that leaving may be the hardest thing I've done in my life up to this point.